Friendship

You don't really understand how much your friends mean to you until something happens to you. It is then that you see the extent to which your friends appreciate you.
After having an operation I was sent home, feeling tired I lazily switched on my phone and was bombarded with text messages. As soon as I replied to one I had another 7 come through along the lines of 'Hey we heard youre home how are you?'. Personally I wouldnt have thought that they would have cared much, it wasnt anything major it was just that I missed a day seeing them all. But I was overcome with happiness that they cared that much. People you see everyday in one enviornment you think that they are friends with you because you are just there, but the truth is your friendship extends further. More like family. I like that.

I like the friends that you met summers ago that you can still talk to and things arent awkward. You can still chat about 'that time when...' and talk about present day like you only last saw each other yesterday. I love that, its comforting to know that it can be like how it was.

This year is our final year, our final year of knowing everything about everyone everyday. Our final year of having to go to the same place everyday, sticking to the same timetable, doing the same thing, seeing the same people. I dont think any of us can wait until we leave. We will be launched into life, the unknown, there will be no familiar faces to help us out. We will be left in the untouched forrest of the unknown to fend for ourselves. Some people wont cope, but others will. Its strange, because we know that its our final year. We should be making friendships stronger, but I find that we are getting bored of each other. Im getting sick of people, the same boring, conceited and ignorant people. People I would have considered friends a year ago, I try not to talk to them too much for fear of telling them that I think that they are boring as fuck. I cant help it, I pick out peoples faults. Shame really. But then again, I have been a part of a different group of friends who are so accepting and fill in the void that I had with the 'other' group. They actually make me laugh, the one factor I consider important in friendships is the ability to laugh with and at each other. I couldnt do that on a day to day basis with the 'other' group but I can do it with the new group and I love them all for it. We are still getting to know each other but its magical, to be honest Im probably more likely to stay in touch with some of them than I am with people Ive known for years because we are making the effort. Yet again, its a shame.

Friendships change and evolve into something new, fresh and individual. This evolution we have no control of can become positive or negative but we each remember every individual that we have had a connection to. Each person we have met and remembered in our lives have, in some shape or form, made us who we are today.